better then nothing

well this weekend has been vastly different then i could have thought. gordo decided to stay and visit until tomarrow morning which will be monday. its been a great time though, just talking, playing some games, watching tv (especially the contender), and just relaxing. its been good to have you here gordo!
so the blog is called jon and bekah's life...but honestly i don't know what exactly our life is right now. i dont even think that i'm supposed to know. we still dont really have any close friends here in NC and thats frustrating, bekah still doesnt have a job yet and thats frustrating, one of my dogs wont learn where he is supposed to poop and thats frustrating, and i have know iidea what direction to head next in jon and bekah's life. i thought i was going to go to NC State to become a teacher, but thats not looking so good right now. i feel like we are were God wants us (as reasssuring as that can be when i have know idea why i am here). i am growing closer to my wife through this though. it hasn't been the easiest why to grow closer together but who knows..maybe its the best way? i love her and i am glad she is here in this wilderness of life with me. whats next? last weeks sermon at church was "how can i know gods will for my life" and this weeks was "why does god allow suffering" (oh yeah and we got a flat tire today...haha) anyhow they both showed me that God is trying to draw me closer to him through suffering and seeking his will..now if i can just get there. ok change of pace
paul and jen if you read this i hope that you guys are having an awesome time i'm happy for you both. i look forward to doing some traveling, not necessarily for two months non-stop, but still i cant wait.
well i'm tired and im going to bed.
later